Girls everywhere, even my white family was out. I pointed out Ax to see what they thought, even though I do like someone now. But Ax is to be respected for all the great things that she does. She is the one person that I can count on if she is not busy with other things. Tonight I was upset, but I won’t mention it except for this, had something to do with A. Was upset until my 3 rd beer, and then I just said whatever. I do like someone a lot. I would do anything to show her a great summer. I’m not good at these things so nothing will happen. I was told to stay away from Ax. So I try not to even look her way, but it’s tough. That sucks. She is very beautiful to me and it’s hard to ignore her or look away. It’s fine though. If that’s what needs to happen, fine. I guess as long as I stay good and safe and away, I will be fine.
Because I’m having a panic attack. I can’t go into a group of people without some sort of confidence.